Last night I went to bed with the intention of not snoozing and going to the gym inthe moring. It was great once I was up and moving around. It took a lot to remove myself from my warm cozy bed, but I did it! I did it for myself. My life needs a shift and therefore my energy needs a shift. This is not a new years resolution, but a commitment to myself and my life. I welcome anyone reading this to do the same. As you do this for yourself beware of temptation!
Lets rewind a bit to yesterday morning. I got up after snoozing for my usual half our and then stepped on the scale. I had gained about 7 pounds over the past few months, and I have Florida to look forward to at the end of February. I also felt a little nauseous which has been happening lately when I am not eating healthy. It's more than the weight, even thought that bothers me, it's about being healthy and good to myself. Why would I want to destroy myself? Therefore I texted my boyfriend, Carlo, and asked him to hide the cookies at his house. I was determined to not have any cookies this day! I had tried this the day before without success, because he brought cookies and cake home from his parents...it was cassata cake!!! I couldn't resist...which actually means I didn't want to resist it. So that was a fail in my book, BUT I was determined on to not repeat history. Soooo all was on a healthy track AGAIN when the universe came at me again with cookie temptation! I was at my brother's giving him a Reiki healing and my sister-in-law was BAKING fresh yummy chocolate chip cookies and sugar cookies!!! This time I had the smell to further make me feel i needed them. It was temptation city!! At the end of the Reiki session the house was smelling soooo yummy. My brother and sister-in-law offered me some, and I knew what the universe was up to so I resisted. I felt so proud of myself, and I actually thought it was funny! The universe was testing me just like the night before, and I wasn't about to fail!
Temptation will present itself as you break out of patterns. It seems like it is even more of an occurrence when we are breaking ourselves out of something that is huge for our souls journey. It's like, the bigger the struggle....the more the universe keeps checking to see if you are sure you want to change. This is where it takes checking in with where your focus is, and having great will power to resist falling back into old habits. As you shake out the old pattern from your energy, and shift your focus, you will see things like this come up. Now that you are aware, you can see the addiction or situation from a different perspective. When you can do this, whatever the pattern is or was will have less of an energetic hold on you...because you can see it for what it is. For me, I saw the cookie as a test instead of a yummy treat that tastes soooo good. Sometimes it's challenging to shift your focus from the "cookie" to what our goal is. It's also fun to investigate what the universe is bringing into your reality too! Why are certain things showing up? Where is your focus? What has shown up for you when you have tried to break a pattern?
I am a person who has been learning to open my awareness to what God is communicating to me through various means while tuning into my intuition. Trusting in divine timing and learning to flow isn't always pretty. We can honor our feelings and find healing through taking a look at the messiness, and working through it with as much grace and ease as we can. Sometimes a good piece of chocolate is necessary :)